Are You Joking?!?!

Someone must be joking... it has to be a joke, or some cruel game...

I get up this morning at 6:12 like a good little girl. I got hardly any sleep last night so it was very hard for me to get up. I watch my DVR'd Project Runway as I wake up then get ready, leave the house, battle the traffic from the Westside to Belfort where the Doc's office is. I get there, everyone there is so nice, I have my Twilight book (which I purchased when we lost power during Fay with the intent to read it but never started it, then my sister tells me it's awesome and Mel has posted that it's awesome as well!) I'm ready to get this underway.

Let me give you some back story here. I have these tiny little veins that love to roll and disappear when people come towards me with needles. I've always had a hard time with my blood work, there is apparently one woman in the world that can stick me with a butterfly cath and get it first try so I might just go beg her and offer to pay out of my pocket! I typically go home with pricks all over my body, most phlobotimists have to get it out of my hand or even my feet I've had that done before. I HATE getting my blood drawn, half the time I go home with bruises all over cause people can't find my veins.

Which is exactly what happened to me this morning! I get there, eyes puffy, book in hand, go back to the chair and she's having a hard time. Slapping my arm, I pumped the little stress ball so much my hands got tingly. I'm starving cause by this time it's 8am and I still have 2 more hours before I can get food (and anyone that knows me knows I wake up hungry and breakfast is my fav meal of the day!) I wasn't really irritated, and I'm still not. It's just the way life goes I suppose, first this appointment was moved back a day, now another day.

She told me I could go down the street to Quest. I decided to forgo it for this morning, mainly because I had a major headache hadn't taken meds (cause I couldn't, it's fasting blood work) I'm extreemly tired cause I didn't sleep well the lastnight and well there is a Quest near my house so I'll just go in the AM or Saturday AM! She told me to drink a lot of water that it would help my veins show up. I've got two arms bruised and I just didn't want to be poked anymore today, twice in each arm is enough for today! Is that selfish of me? Possibly. Do I care? Nope.

I'm likely just going to do this on Saturday. I have an early morning wedding, well it's a mid day wedding really at the beach so we have to get there at like 10:30. I'll get up go get my blood done at 7am when they open and again at 9am cause it's a two parter, then go have a good breakfast somewhere in Riverside and then get to the beach at 10:30 so that when the wedding is over I can come home read my book, and nap! That sounds like a terriffic plan to me! I've already got a busy day tomorrow... but who knows Wes will likely talk me into getting it over with in the morning, but I personally think my poor arms (at least my right one which is way more bruised than the left) need a day to rest....

Blah....

So tomorrow is the big day, well the big no breakfast day. I love breakfast, and I'm grouchy with out breakfast. I have to get up at like 6:30 and get ready battle traffic, which I do not miss from having a "real job". Lady says shouldn't take more than 2-3hours depending. Booo! Can't they get the same info out of pee! hahaha that would be too easy... if only I could give them a hair sample, at the rate it's falling out I'll be bald in like 10yrs or less! Which is something else I have to remind them of. Anyone want to text me in the AM and remind me to have the Doc add that to my chart?

I'm a bit anxious can you tell? I'm just ready to start all this stuff, I'm ready for my body to act right. I'm ready to share with you guys my new diet plan and possibly get someone else on the same insane diet to help push me along with it. I'm looking forward to this blog reaching a few people and getting some new pen pals.

I spoke with the people at my treatment center today, they might have a job opening soon which is kinda cool I could use an easy part time job. Dealing with patients is easy... I'm going to call again tomorrow to see where to send my resume. I've got debt to pay off and while my business is running along smoothly I'm still not able to pay myself any type of salary. It's been 2 years now, things are getting really hard around the house with me not pulling in any money. I'm hoping my new studio (since it's extra anyway) will bring in some new business and I'll be able to pay myself commissions off of it... that was the goal anyway.

OH here I am rambling about more than just PCOS stuff, but this is more a journal for me to keep to read back a year from now or more to see what life was about in september of 2008.

I'm going to finish up dinner so we can eat in a little bit, we are both hungry. Eating this early only leads to us being hungry again before bed! But I'm making veggies so maybe I can snack on that before bed instead of cereal! LOL

Out of Office

Yeah... so the doctor's office just called to tell me that either the dietitian or the bloodwork lady will be out of the office on the 24th and pushed me to the 25th... yippie!

It's been almost 10yrs I suppose one more day won't hurt...

Booo bloodwork....

So, Wed the 24th I get my first round of bloodwork with the new doctors. No food or drink after midnight the night before, no biggie I've pretty well given up late night snacking, and 3hrs worth of time in the Dr's office getting bloodwork done. Not my idea of fun. I'm a bit nervous though. They are going to set me up with a diatition that's going to tell me I have horrid eating habits, and that I can never have bread, pasta, or potatos again in my life.

This has been an uphill battle for years, one that I've pretty well be losing. I want to be normal, but at the same time I think that my abnormalities are part of what makes me who I am and I'm almost a little scared to give that up. I like being in control and having some skinny blond that went to school to study food telling me what I need to do with my life and eating habits isn't exactly what I like to call, enjoyable. But I'm going to do it... I've been eating like hell the past three weeks becasue I know after the 24th everything will change.

I decided to start this blog after finding out that 6+ people on my myspace friends page have PCOS as well... it's so common these days but still such a mystery to most doctors. I'm very happy to have found specialits in my area that really seem to know what they are talking about... I'll update this when I feel blue, happy, sad, depressed, any emotion connected to this journey will get put here for the entire www to see... I'm really a private person and it's very hard for me to open up and do things but if my diet, exercise plan, and openess about struggles can help someone else I'm willing to put my selfishness aside and share this journey in my life.